The Unexplained Feelings of Autistic People…
Recent studies have determined that some girls on the Autism Spectrum take refuge in their imaginations instead of adapting to society. These girls, who create an alternative world where they are valued and appreciated when they are not successful in their relationships with their peers, have revealed that these girls protect themselves by creating imaginary friends by identifying with fictional characters such as Harry Potter or Hermione Granger, who constantly face adversity but have special powers and special friends. These imaginary friends both comfort and support them.
These girls can then go in search of ancient civilizations where they feel at home, in search of another country or even planet that they think they can be accepted, and they can be intensely interested in witches, fairies, the traditional fantasy world of mythology. Most children like to live in a fantasy world, but for girls on the Autism Spectrum, living in this fantasy world can also be a means of escaping the fears of reality and living a relatively safe and successful social life.
Tony Atwood, in his extensive clinical experience and the autobiographies he has read so far, stated that women with Autism can be extremely sensitive to the emotional atmosphere in social gatherings, and women with autism, who have this perception ability, which we can define as almost 6 feelings, can intensely perceive other people’s emotions such as fear, hopelessness, and hostility. He also underlines that having a sensitive emotional system and not touching the reality of having a strong “sixth sense” can lead to a supernatural interest that can be misinterpreted as a sign.
As a person with autism, you know that if you sometimes have a question, you won’t be comfortable until you find the answer to it… That’s why it was a little sad to see that a very simple question that sometimes became an obsession shaped my whole life. Especially when the cost of the confusion created by this simple question is too heavy to carry…
For me, this simple question was “Why do I feel different from other people, who am I?” Why didn’t others feel some of the things I felt? How was it that I could tell when animals were sick? How was it that I could feel earthquakes? The examples of how and why go on and on. Call it the 6th sense if you want, an instinct like in animals, or the clarity of perceptions… The name doesn’t matter, but not knowing why and looking for it determined the course of my life, and the costs of this are very heavy…
At the centre where I went for the diagnosis of autism, my relative who came with me asked the following question to the experts who diagnosed it. “How is it that Meltem can’t understand the people who lie to her, manipulate her under her nose, and sometimes she’s miles away from her. Even if you are far away, they can understand that you are in trouble. Sometimes she doesn’t understand people at all, but she can communicate with animals incredibly easily. Geese, dolphins, horses…. “The expert lady is very calm”, she said, we call it Autism and said that some autistic people have such perceptions as if saying the simplest thing in the world. However, this answer meant so much to me that…